motherhood

well, i've had 2 full days back with my "weekday baby" (her parents were out of town so i had a week off). i was able to go so many more places and get so much more done while i didn't have her. while my kindergartner was at school, my little one and i went to the mall, target, walgreens, cvs, james avery, to lunch, etc. and it was so easy. i remember, a few years ago, when i just had 1 kiddo and i thought it was difficult to get stuff done and now when i just had 1 kid with me, it seems like a vacation. one of my friends said just wait and see how much you can get done with no kids during the day (when both of mine are in school) - wow, that sounds like a dream to me! don't get me wrong, i love being able to be a stay-at-home mom! it's a lot of work (i feel like i'm running all day and then at night i wonder what the hell i did all day), but it is so rewarding when my kids say how much they love me and they are learning and developing so well. even keeping my "weekday baby" has it's perks. because the kindergartner is off at school all day, it's nice for my little one to have someone else to play with and because they are so close in age (18 months) they do bicker over toys and so it's good to teach both of them to share and play nice. they are both the youngest of their respective families and so they need to learn that they can't always have their way. and they do get along really well most of the time! my "weekday baby" gives huge smiles to my little one and is even starting to say her name. another name for the "weekday baby" could also be "destruction in a diaper"! she literally goes into a room and tears everything out of a drawer, basket, shelf, whatever and then moves on to the next room - she doesn't even play with the stuff! my house looks like a tornado hit it everyday when she leaves! sometimes i think it would be so much easier to not keep her but the money that i make helps to pay for my kindergartner's private school and i feel that it is really important. it may be a little (or sometimes a lot) more work for me, but i think it is all in all the best thing!

it's been a while

i guess it's been a while since i have written on here (i even had to look up my password to log on)! truthfully, i don't really know why i even am a blogger. i definitely do not "feel this need to express myself before I burst", i'm not especially witty or funny and i never even liked writing when i had to do it in school. i guess it's good for me to actually use my brain for something other than kindergarten homework and calculating recipes and seeing how many bills i can pay, loads of laundry i can fold and dishes i can put away all during one cartoon. i used to write in a journal everyday while i was pregnant with my first and for most of the first year of her life. it's really a great thing to have and i love to go back and read it now. i really wish that i could still do that now but i just don't have the time. i still try to write in it at least once a month (or so) and now i have this blog so that i can look back on. i have been very busy the past few weeks - i'm the room mom at my oldest's school and they have had their 100 day party and are about to have their valentine's party. i have also gone in to help the teacher with some projects. her teacher is the greatest - i wish she could have her again next year! on top of all of that, our whole family was sick as hell! it started with my oldest throwing up and within a couple of days all 4 of us were throwing up and it took a few days before we felt like we hadn't been run over by a truck! right after that we had a super bowl party at our house and so i had to scrub the house before we could have people over. i washed every door handle and light switch because i didn't want anyone else to get that crud that we had! this is the first year we didn't get a flu shot (because i forgot about it) and i will never do that again! well, i better get to all of the chores i've been neglecting lately but i'll be back soon!